Humanity

I’m beginning to lose hope in humanity. Each day, I hear bad news, whether it be in the news or through friends and family. So many shootings and unwarranted deaths. So many people taking their lives, not realizing the hurt they leave in the hearts of family and friends.

Two years ago I thought I was at an all-time low when my uncle Peter and cousin Justin passed away. I was depressed and cried for weeks on end. Little did I know that this year would be even harder. One of my good friends hung himself. We didn’t even know he was depressed. He was the go-to for information on hunting and fantasy football. Then yesterday, an Edgecumbe classmate took her life as well. I feel so bad for her kids. She had four kids: one at Mt. Edgecumbe and two little ones. I hate that they have to live without a mom for the rest of their lives. How do you answer the question, “Where is mom?” or “What happened to mom?”

As depressed as I have become, I can’t imagine leaving behind my kids. I would hate to live without my mom. She and my grandma are my rock. There is something about a mother’s love that makes the world go round. I have been lucky to have two moms.

I feel hopeless. I don’t want to go to work. I don’t want to cook. I don’t want to bake like I used to. Music doesn’t move me like it did in the past. I have lost all motivation. I don’t know what it will take to climb back up.

I keep wondering if the world is ending soon with all the natural disasters, ugly world leaders, hatred spread all around, homicides, drugs, mental health crises, etc. What is the world coming to if not the end? Why can’t we all just love one another? Why are kids bullying other kids? Why are people killing over drugs?

The only thing we can do is to do our part in making the world a better place. Be nice to one another. Do good deeds.  Share a smile. Sometimes a smile makes all the difference for a person. Ask people how their day is going. Hold the door open for someone.  Call a friend and catch up. Simple gestures go a long way. I know simple gestures won’t fix the world, but it can’t make things worse.